Definitely not the last...

Why??lol..why is it that it always has to be only when I come into the situation and always the last to comment on it and people will start to make a big fuss about it?are they not used to it?am i not supposed to comment because i'm suppose to be the "super guai boy" in everybody's mindsets??or when i comment then that it will trigger an origin for something extreme to happen??why arh?you tell me why..i really don''t know why..but the only reason i have figured out so far is because that most of the people out there are all superficial and stereotypes..."only those whom i am used to to see them making such comments on stuff then will I don't care or it's ok", if not, "oh my god, he?he??are you sure??something must be wrong somewhere..I must do something to add in the fuel or at least do something, because if he can do it and has done it, then i MUST do it too!!" is this their type of mindset??probably..even if it's not 100%, definitely there will be a 90% true..i'm not pessimistic or something but this is really what it always happens no matter when, what, where, who, why, how, bla bla bla...it always happens..good luck to all these superficial people out there cos i know that they won't last for long in anything they do in the future anyway...that is why i need to wish them luck what..makes sense??yes..absolutely...

The harsh nature of the society...

Oh my gosh...like seriously it has been ages since i last blogged!!omg!!ahahaha...its even longer than the time it takes the earth to rotate around the sun for one complete round...lol...ahahaha...get it??no?never mind..it simply means tt it has been more than a year plus plus plus of not sure how much since my last entry in this blog!!rofl..lol..hahahah...

Sadly...the blog today may be quite an emo one as I had finally learnt about the super duper uber cruel, cold-blooded, backstabbing, hypocrites, double-standards, double-faced, and sinister monsters whom I have been facing all these years...oh my gosh...like seriosly..it may sound quite uncomfortable..what the hell and who does all these don't know about what humanity is all about creatures doing here??!!!like seriously...stop being two-faced to me cos i can see all of your those "flamboyant" and whatever shapes and sizes fox tails all of you got there..do you think i can't tell that what you are doing??do you really take me as a fool??want to know something??just because that i didn't mention or show any signs about it does not mean that i am UNAWARE & IGNORANT about it..FGS (For Goodness Sake) i am the most alert and updated of whatever which is happening around me even if you didn't let me know about it or had told me the other side of the story...or rather..maybe i should put it in this way..you know only 2 ways..but i know about 100 ways of just one matter..and do you know why??because I have been TOO QUIET and all just TOO QUIET so that i can HEAR & OBSERVE & LEARN more about what is really happening..haven't you heard about the chinese saying goes that the outsider is more aware of the incident as compared to the insider??or did you forget about it??or did your teachers didn't even taught you that when you were still in primary school??or did you fall asleep or just turned a deaf ear to your teacher when she wwas teaching about this??or did you EVEN ATTEND PRIMARY SCHOOL??!! like seriously..i know of how to do this "thing" more than you do..so just stop pushing your luck and throw your airs around because i know of every move of yours which is going to come and if i were going to decide to tun the tables around you..trust me, these tables would even have hidden compartments which u didn't know about it in the first place and that it would be fatal enough just from one of it..and you know something??sometimes you are so vicious and cunning that you think you can fool me upside down..but if that's what you are thinking...seriously..just buzz off and get lost from this society!!!!!because YOU ARE NOT WELCOME HERE!!!!!!and even if you think you are...you are NOT!!!because i am not even sure whether you are a human or not!!!

Feeling a bit better now..sorry those curious and innocent ones whom had to look through this..really soory if this had really spoilt your mood or made your day more emo after looking at all this ...... stuff..but anyway i tin there are still some more ...... inside of me now but just that don't know how to express it in words...wait till i get these words out I may feel much much much better...

Adiyos
Steven =)

A Brand New Year!! =D=D

haha...lol...omg...like it had been such an uber super duper long long time ago since i last blogged...haha...cos was feeling kind of lazy and didn't had time to so because of having to go to work and rushing projects and assignments back then...lol...2008 was indeed a year which i had least expected with regards to the ups and downs and stuff...but do you all know something??lol...i can't even feel the year 2008 had passed even as of today...everything just seems so sudden and quick...nonetheless, just by having to judge on this...do you think having an element as time is a positive or a negative thing??haha...well...i am not sure about that as well...and guess what??i had the same feeling last year when i was counting down for the year 2008 from the last day of 2007 on e 31/12/2007...lol...and i could even remember where i was, who i was with and what was i exactly doing during that last second as i was counting down to the brabd new year 0f 2008...and now...lol...from 2008 to 2009...like seriously...i can't feel anything...though things had passed, hatchets are buried...relationships are strained, are developed, are improved...but i still feel like that there are still so many things which i have yet to do back in 2008...lol...will it be the same feeling again when i am counting down to the new decade later from 2009 to 2010??lol...i don't know...but all i know is that i will just leave it to the hands of nature as stuff and interaction and etc will happen which will then affect my mindset when it comes to the ending of the year...lol...haha...yup...now i am just tired with work and felt that i ahd not been enjoying and re-charging enough during the holidays for the brand new term to start!!!lol...haha...and sleep time and re-charging moments had been so important to me as after the new term starts...it will be...haha...guess those who are in the same course and cohort as me will know...P3 and SIP portfolio development...lol...like everything is really happening so fast and it would then be back to sleepless nights...or rather...sleepy nights but just can't go to sleep due to all the interim submissions during my P3...lol...but no matter what happens...i will and i can hang in there as i know i had did it before and i definitely could do it again...haha...to all those out there who maybe feeling the same way as i am feeling now...just cherish whatever reationships, items, stuff, etc deeply and never ever regret in anything which you had done...as by having to complete it you are already a wimmer yourself as you had managed to hang in there and didn't give up at the very last minute even at the moment when you really felt like giving up...haha...yup...so really you could just use that as as your recharger or energy booster or whatever in your own terms and then by looking at that tell yourself the same thing as well when it happens again..."If i had did it before, i definitely could do it again, it is only a matter of wheher i want to do it or not"...lol...haha...but yup...lol...sounds a bit "cim"...lol...haha...but yup...ok...guess that's all for now...should be going to bed soon already as i still have to wake up early in the morning tommorow for the student comm session tommorow!!!lol...my holidays were really all burnt to dust...lol...haha...kay in that case...till next time...c yaz!! =D

Zooming off =)

Thanks Everyone Who Had Voted For Me!!! =)

Wee pee!!! Thanks everyone who had came down to vote for me...i am really very grateful to all of you and i really appreciated it a lot...yup... =) but anyway...it's the starting of the new block and there are already and how i wish the holidays could just be longer for a little bit more...say like one week more?? =) haha...how time flies and it's already been one year and one block for me in my poly life...and i have learn so much just from this period of time...haha...be it handling and observing relationships with the people around me...or even to someone who opens up and is not that quiet as before like me...i think i have really learnt a lot from the school from this period of time and that iwill have more to learn in the next 1 year plus... =) learning how to be more independent, learning how to be more firm, and learning how to be more conscious of my surroundings...these are all which i still have to buck up on...yup...haha...but that's life...isn't it?? haha...anyways that's all for now...so until next time...c ya folks!!! =)

Signing Off.. =)

VOTE FOR STEVEN!!! 27th-29th May @ TP Cyber Centre 11am-6pm

Long time no see folks...my first entry since the beginning of the block commences...haha...but anyway, if any of you are reading this entry now, then please come down to the TP Cyber Centre 0n the 27th-29th of May and vote for me at anytime between 11am-6pm for the Design Studies' Club (DSC) Main Committee...oh yea!!haha...

Aching Away...

now just feeling quite confused, worried, afraid, shocked, and a tinch of anger...but all in one...negative feelings...argh......can you stop it and at least let me know what had happened or if that i had done anything wrong...rather than always responding so "coldly" as compared to last times...do you know how terrible and super uneasy and uncomfortable the feeling is...i had been tolerating for very long already...and why is it so when P1 is already over...shouldn't i be enjoying and not to have those feelings which i had in P1 again for the moment...but why is it not the case and that the feeling is seriously seriously even worse than P1...it is just so tight and pain in the chest...really feel like getting a stroke or heart attack any point in time now...even if P1 is over...AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IT IS ACHING SO MUCH INSIDE AND IT IS REALLY SO SUPER DUPER UNCOMFORTABLE AND TIGHT!!!urgh.....when then will this feeling stop...urgh...i hope it really stops before i blast it out or go bonkers......because this is seriously...urgh...ok...shall stop it...and one more thing...what is it that you cant tell me but you can tell to others and even do it behind my back...am i really like an alien to you...will i really eat you up like an alligator??okay...thats it folks...felling a bit better after letting it all out here...but apologies to those if it had affected your emotions at any point in time as you are reading this post...till next time...c ya...

Frustrating away... :-(

Happy Chinese New Year 2008!!! =)

FIrst and foremost, Happy Chinese New Year 2008 (the year of the rat) to those out there who are busy collecting their "angbaos"...lol...may this year be a prosperous new year to all...and especially to those who "chong tai sui" for this year of the rat...and these are none other than those whose chinese zodiacs are the horses...just be yourself and i'm sure you will be able to undergo this year with no obstacles...haha...but anyway...now it's goodbye to 3D Art and "Hello" to P1 "X2"...lol...though 3D Art is over...but it seems no difference when P1's work has just been piling up and up, as if there's no ending to it...lol...so going to take this long weekend as an excellent source of "Re-Charging" period for me...lol...it's going to be the most tensing at the very last lap, but i'm still going to hang there, and give it my best in whatever i do...yes...haha...other than this, then there was also DOTC 1 last weekend...it was a 2day-1night camp in Design school...quite tiring as well...as we still had to finish our work for the Phase 2 submission on the following tuesday...which only left us with about 2days ++ to finish our work...tiring...but i still thought that i did not give it my best during the DOTC 1...hence...if i'm going to be in for DOTC 2...i'm definitely going to give my 110% for it...thus...watch out guys...lol...haha...cause i'm coming...lol...back to CNY...lol...got to play a few rounds of mahjong...poker caeds...and i think there will be more mahjong coming up, one of them which is later...lol...going to play at home with my uncle, aunt and my mum or my elder sister...lol...fun fun fun...triggers the itch even more...haha...but it's quite tiring as well...as i had to "shou shui" for the lunar new year eve night...got too sleep at around 1plus2am...then the next day went to visit my grandfather and relatives for...then got to stayed over at my cousin's house until 12plus am then went home...after a round of mahjong and poker cards...lol...and woke up at ard 10plus in the morning the next day ("chu er"), and which i was late when i was suppose to wake up at 8am in the morning instead...as i had to went down to my grandfather's temple and helped out in the arrangement of the tables and chairs, and other technical stuff...for the big day tommorow...which was today...where the temple will be opened to all to come and pray and have some vegetarian meal there...and guessed what time i woke up today...5.30am in the morning...and then went down to the temple at ard 6.30am to have my breakfast there and get started with my role there asap...which is to sell the joss sticks and "paper made lotus flowers"...tensing on my retina as i have to look carefully so as not to change the wrong amount of money to those who are buying the joss sticks...imagine counting coins and notes early in the morning again and again and again...lol...when those retina were not even fully stimulated by the sensory input of the eyes yet...lol...but anyway still managed to complete my role there and then went back home at around 4plus in the afternoon...got a shower and some noodles and beehoon for my meal then came to blog...lol...so tired now...going to take a break and then continue the quest for my mahjong journey in this fifteen days of the Chinese New Year 2008 in the year of the rat...lol...haha...hence...till next time...c ya folks!! =D

Signing out... :-)