Aching Away...

now just feeling quite confused, worried, afraid, shocked, and a tinch of anger...but all in one...negative feelings...argh......can you stop it and at least let me know what had happened or if that i had done anything wrong...rather than always responding so "coldly" as compared to last times...do you know how terrible and super uneasy and uncomfortable the feeling is...i had been tolerating for very long already...and why is it so when P1 is already over...shouldn't i be enjoying and not to have those feelings which i had in P1 again for the moment...but why is it not the case and that the feeling is seriously seriously even worse than P1...it is just so tight and pain in the chest...really feel like getting a stroke or heart attack any point in time now...even if P1 is over...AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IT IS ACHING SO MUCH INSIDE AND IT IS REALLY SO SUPER DUPER UNCOMFORTABLE AND TIGHT!!!urgh.....when then will this feeling stop...urgh...i hope it really stops before i blast it out or go bonkers......because this is seriously...urgh...ok...shall stop it...and one more thing...what is it that you cant tell me but you can tell to others and even do it behind my back...am i really like an alien to you...will i really eat you up like an alligator??okay...thats it folks...felling a bit better after letting it all out here...but apologies to those if it had affected your emotions at any point in time as you are reading this post...till next time...c ya...

Frustrating away... :-(

Happy Chinese New Year 2008!!! =)

FIrst and foremost, Happy Chinese New Year 2008 (the year of the rat) to those out there who are busy collecting their "angbaos"...lol...may this year be a prosperous new year to all...and especially to those who "chong tai sui" for this year of the rat...and these are none other than those whose chinese zodiacs are the horses...just be yourself and i'm sure you will be able to undergo this year with no obstacles...haha...but anyway...now it's goodbye to 3D Art and "Hello" to P1 "X2"...lol...though 3D Art is over...but it seems no difference when P1's work has just been piling up and up, as if there's no ending to it...lol...so going to take this long weekend as an excellent source of "Re-Charging" period for me...lol...it's going to be the most tensing at the very last lap, but i'm still going to hang there, and give it my best in whatever i do...yes...haha...other than this, then there was also DOTC 1 last weekend...it was a 2day-1night camp in Design school...quite tiring as well...as we still had to finish our work for the Phase 2 submission on the following tuesday...which only left us with about 2days ++ to finish our work...tiring...but i still thought that i did not give it my best during the DOTC 1...hence...if i'm going to be in for DOTC 2...i'm definitely going to give my 110% for it...thus...watch out guys...lol...haha...cause i'm coming...lol...back to CNY...lol...got to play a few rounds of mahjong...poker caeds...and i think there will be more mahjong coming up, one of them which is later...lol...going to play at home with my uncle, aunt and my mum or my elder sister...lol...fun fun fun...triggers the itch even more...haha...but it's quite tiring as well...as i had to "shou shui" for the lunar new year eve night...got too sleep at around 1plus2am...then the next day went to visit my grandfather and relatives for...then got to stayed over at my cousin's house until 12plus am then went home...after a round of mahjong and poker cards...lol...and woke up at ard 10plus in the morning the next day ("chu er"), and which i was late when i was suppose to wake up at 8am in the morning instead...as i had to went down to my grandfather's temple and helped out in the arrangement of the tables and chairs, and other technical stuff...for the big day tommorow...which was today...where the temple will be opened to all to come and pray and have some vegetarian meal there...and guessed what time i woke up today...5.30am in the morning...and then went down to the temple at ard 6.30am to have my breakfast there and get started with my role there asap...which is to sell the joss sticks and "paper made lotus flowers"...tensing on my retina as i have to look carefully so as not to change the wrong amount of money to those who are buying the joss sticks...imagine counting coins and notes early in the morning again and again and again...lol...when those retina were not even fully stimulated by the sensory input of the eyes yet...lol...but anyway still managed to complete my role there and then went back home at around 4plus in the afternoon...got a shower and some noodles and beehoon for my meal then came to blog...lol...so tired now...going to take a break and then continue the quest for my mahjong journey in this fifteen days of the Chinese New Year 2008 in the year of the rat...lol...haha...hence...till next time...c ya folks!! =D

Signing out... :-)

First Entry in Year 2008!!! :-)

lol...it's seriously a bit late for this...but i can't help it from my busy schedule in work and school has just started...but it is already starting to have piles and piles of work already...3D Art & P1...lol...not surprising...but no matter what, i'm gonna hang on and overcome it with "flying colours" at the end of the day...lol...but anyway...Happy New Year 2008 Everybody!!haha...and may all your new year resolutions come true in this wonderful year ahead...yea...haha...and with that...finally for today so far in the current block...there is no hw for both 3D ARt and P1!!!lol...haha...and yesterday onli got to have a short wink for around 1 hour plus...before going to wash up and went to school early in the morning...so going t rest and have a nice deserved break later for a very exhausted me...lol...haha...and yee pee!!!i'm in e min committee for DOC 2008...lol...haha...maybe is partially due to my performance in my last event at the TP Design Open House 2008...lol...but anyway...new ideas, new friends, new everything in the next event for me and also in this wonderful new year ahead...lol...haha...yea...so yup...going to take a rest now finally...haha...and till nest time...c ya folks!! =)

Zomming off... :-)

work...

lol...had not been updating my blog for another close to half a month again i guess...lol...this is because i have been quite occupied by work at Tommy Hilfiger...yea...haha...nonetheless, the outlet had been having some sales going on for some christmas and pre-holidays special...so quite busy and drained after work...especially for the staff sales on friday...it was like "a chinatown during the pre Chinese New Year period"...lol...yea...but the sales was quite good there...lol...and i happen to learnt that the outlet which i am working at currently is the one that has been having the highest amount of sales daily as compared to the other outlets in Singapore...lol...haha...all thanks to great and "aggressive" sales assistants like ME!! >< lol...haha...yea so hope to have more gatherings in these next few days during the vacation...as it will be a load of strenous work again when the school starts...zzz...3D Art and Project 1...must really stay focused and concentrate for that period of time...yea...haha...so going to work tommorow again for the afternoon shift till closing...haha...have been working three days consequtively with tommorow as the fourth already...lol...and taking that one of the days is a full-shift one...which means to start work from the opening of the outlet all the way till the closing time...yea...and that day happened to be on a Saturday...zzz...lol...but guess if i want to earn more money...this is what it takes...yea...haha...yup...so guess i'll update again asap when i have the time off from work i hope...haha...so till next tine...take care and c ya!! =D

Signing out... :-)

Back from Penang!!! =D

wow...what an another fun-filled and overseas trip for me for this vacation...lol...i went to Penang, Malaysia!!!haha...though missed some "happenings" back in S'pore...but i will not forget someone's birthday...lol...Happy Sweet 17th Birthday Leong!!...haha...yea...i went to Penang...and according to my mum, i've been there before, but it was like around 12 years ago!!lol...this time round went there...and it was like wow...i like the beautiful scenery there...the only thing i can complain there is the kind of service provided in that hotel and those "greedy" taxi drivers...all "money-suckers"...but went there and shopped and shopped and ate, and shopped and ate, and shopped and ate, and climbed a "mountain" at there as well...then also went to take a look at some of the old places where my mum and grandma grew up there as well...and according to my mum who had not been to Penang as long as i did, which is like around 12 years, lots and lots had changed...such as the many "just-built" high-rise buildings there...Penang is actually an island away from the main Malaysian island a little apart...so there will this long bridge from the main island to Penang, and oh man the bridge is don't know how many tens of times longer than the causeway...lol...but fyi, i got to take a coach bus to and fro there...yea...a bit of a long journey in te bus...and the journey is in the night...so it was like so COLD!!!lol...then slept in the bus until at interval toilet break stops where got to wake up and went to "empty" my bladder a little...lol...but it was like so much nice food there seriously...and it's really "cannot find in S'pore one"...lol...haha...how i wished could had stayed there longer, then could get to eat more of those yummy food...but although didn't get to stay longer, according to my maid when i reached home sweet home just today, she said that i was fatter as compared to when i left for there...lol...but not surprising when i got to eat like up to 4 meals a day...and one meal was like...zzz....g. Lunch: lor mee, wanton mee, curry mee, fried noodle, fried mee sua, chow kway tiao, hokkien mee, prawn noodle, fried oyster, duck beehoon, horfun mixed beehoon...lol...yea...no more no less...haha...but all these was shared among four people including me la...lol...i can't finish all of it by myself...haha...and after i checked with the weighing machine just now...i seriously gained weight...zzz...haha...then shopped at one of the shopping malls there as well, and if i remembered correctly, it was called "The Pranglin Mall"...yea...lol...got three tees and three berms, a cap, a vest, a tie, and a belt...lol...haha...this is because i don't get such prices back here in S'pore...one tee for 20 ringgit also equal to around $8-$9 Sing dollars...and one berm for 35 ringgit...and is those super "cool and trendy" one...haha...and is equal to around $16-$17 Sing dollars...and the rest so on and so for...but all in one...yea...u got it...cheap...haha...and it's in a shopping mall...haha...but it was also partially sue to the end of season and festive season that's why they having some sales going around...and good for me can get "quite a few" stuff from there...haha...yea so just came back...left for Penang on Wednesday night, then just came back this morning...so it was from 28/11 - 2/12...and from this i had actually gt to realise somethings...be it in life or in work...that by letting go something, i may actually get another thing in return...which maybe better...and when it was led go...i then realise somethings, be it a person or an object, how much it meant to me and that whether it had really ever meant something to me before...nevertheless, by realising the important and precious "stuff" to me...be it a person or something...but on the overall, i found that this trip was in the end quite "important" for me...be it to relax an have fun, or to have more exposure, or to realise something...thus it was a meaningful one and hope that there will be more of such overseas trip for me to come...yea...hence till next time...c ya!! =D

Signing off... :-)

Enthusiastic or Committment??

today went to school and had a meeting with aida and rest for the Open House 2008...lol...as i need to be there to know what is going to happen on the day itself...nonetheless, gina and i were the OICs for the OH2008...first time to be an OIC for an event...but shall give it my best shot...yea...haha...then came home after that...now i'm start to ponder over these two words..."enthusiastic" and "committment"...well...as i was thinking that the mass number of people joining the SA in the school are because that they just want the "SEAL" points in order to further their studies after their polytechnic education??or just to go and have fun??or to be committed and attend all the meetings and anything that has regards with the CCA...what the...not that i don't like or something...but i just feel that those people who want to join the SA because they just want the SEAL points, or have fun and being enthusiastic in something...then i think that SA is not even the least correct place for them AT ALL!!it's like if they want to have fun or what, they can go to somewhere else to do so...but not ever in SA for goodness sake...it's like by doing so, it's so self-centered and selfish of them, and always to mess up everything and get everybody involved to clean up the mess they had made after that...because why??it's simply because that when they initially joined SA, they were not even "Committed" to it...that's why...being committed to something and being enthusisatic about something is totally different...you maybe cmmitted about something by taking all responsibilities and duties, or even consequences if there are any about it...but you may just be enthusiastic about something by just playing "THAT" part and totally ignore the other aspects of it...to me, i despise and feel shameful to these people around especially when they are even in SA...like ruining the image and destroying everything like that...suck selfish and sickening ...... anyway, just suddenly thought of it and blogged it...and that it's really irritating to me when there are "such" people around especially all the more in......but right now guess that's all so far...so till the next post again...so long...

Signing out...

-_-lll... zzz......

didn blog for yesterday again...lol...well, ytd just went to cousin's house in the afternoon then stayed there and slacked all the way till around 11plus coming to 11.30pm at night then went thome...haha...as it was so bored at home...lol...then today went to see a doctor early in the morning as i had a running nose, sore throat, and some gastric cramps...lol...so sick...and all due to the workload given!!!...argh!!! lol...then went there and it was a crowd there...guess the awkward weather nowadays recently must had gotten most of the people sick as well...lol...so waited for almost half an hour or more for my turn...then it began to rain cats and dogs again...and it was already around 12.40pm plus in the afternoon, where there will be an SA meeting in school later at 1pm...nonetheless, i took a cab to school from there...and luckily i was not late for the meeting then...and that JY go sabo me and gina to be OIC for the Open House 2008 for the Design School on the whole...lol...urgh...u this JY...be prepared not to be spared under my mercy...lol...haha...then after that went to sing at kbox at marina with joe and wc...and even though i was having a running nose and a sore throat, i still went to sing despite it was almost impossible for most of the people...as i didn't want to last minute cancal the outing, if not it would then not be very nice as well...yea...so went to sing until 6pm in the evening then went to PS for RHD crap dinner at LJS...been having LJS for the last couple of days...lol...and i'm still having a sore throat...after that i felt a bit tired and that i would also need to rest well and rest early due o my sickness...and guess what...i would have to recover asap from this sicknesses as i will be going to Malaysia for an overseas hoilday trip with ym family...lol...to get sick at the wrong time....and to get the "full package" as well at one shot...so went home and bathed and had a little of TV, then came online and started to blog...argh...hope that i would really recover from all my sicknesses asap for the overseasa holiday trip which is just the day after??lol...and that i also had not even started to pack up my stuff yet for it...argh...kind of a crappy start for my holidays...and really really seriously hope that it would going to be better holiday for me tommorow...going to rest early and start to pack some of my stuff for the overseas holiday trip...so until the next post again...c ya!! =D

Zooming off... :-)